Wednesday, November 17, 2010


The past couple of days I've felt like death warmed over. Not physically, emotionally. I finally realized today what it is. I'm depressed. It's a scary thing to say that. I know it's not like the depressed I used to feel, I'm still able to think clearer than then, but it's still scary to know I'm feeling this way. All I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep, and sleep it off. I have no patience for Ethan and feel distanced from my husband. I know it will go away even though I have that dreaded fear it won't. I just hope it goes away soon.

Goddess temporarily in hiding...

EDIT (wanted to write these down for myself more than anything)
- zero energy
- no patience
- extreme fatigue
- indecisive
- little interest in things
- feel like sobbing
- little appetite
- feeling 'off'
- extreme desire for comfort, whether in clothing, food, smells, affection, or other things

P.S. Tried a drink called Neuro Bliss tonight. It's specifically designed to help with stress and mood. It seemed to help a little bit. Going to pick up more tomorrow to keep around for times like this.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

I Am a Big Sister

Life always seems to get in the way of me writing on here, but I need to do it. Maybe I'll make Saturdays my blog day...

Anyways, I wanted to get on here and talk about bullying, and the other ridiculous things that go hand in hand with it: Gossip, Hypocrisy, and Double Standards to name a few. I recently read a wonderful post on a wonderful mother's blog. Here is the link because I think everyone can learn something from it:

I can't go into too much detail, but I wanted to write about a situation my sister has found herself dealing with over and over again. First off, my little sister is 17, a senior, class president, very smart, VERY talented. She takes care of herself by watching what she eats and staying active. She is gorgeous, and I am not just saying that because I'm her sister. Here, I'll show you.

Picture Copyright Tara Staton Photography

Told ya. She is a beautiful person inside and out. She has high standards. And she keeps them. She is a hard worker. She's goofy, fun, silly, and a wonderful aunt to my little boy. She's the girl that more girls ought to be like. Unfortunately, this can be a problem for her. She's the first to be belittled, gossiped about, and walked over. Bullying has kind of taken center stage in the news lately, but I think there needs to be more light shed on the 'hidden bullying' that is just as much a real problem. The bullying done by thoughtless peers and friends. But worst of all, by the so-called adults. When did it become ok to assume nasty things about someone even when their moral character screams otherwise? When did it become ok to accept what a gossiper says and forget the truth you know of the person being gossiped about? When did it become ok to be so critical of each other? When did we become so self-centered? When did it become ok for adults to treat the younger generations with such cruelty? And we wonder why kids these days are so screwed up...

It deeply saddens me that this happens to anyone, but it cuts especially deep when someone I know will say how wonderful my sister is one day, but the next assume the worst possible things about her. Can't you see the purity radiating from her? How can you see all her goodness and then believe a spiteful lie or assumption? Stop pointing fingers at others and start taking a good hard look at yourself. You might find a lot that you don't like, but the good news is, we can learn from our faults and mistakes and choose to better ourselves. What will your choice be? I know what mine is.
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