The past couple of days I've felt like death warmed over. Not physically, emotionally. I finally realized today what it is. I'm depressed. It's a scary thing to say that. I know it's not like the depressed I used to feel, I'm still able to think clearer than then, but it's still scary to know I'm feeling this way. All I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep, and sleep it off. I have no patience for Ethan and feel distanced from my husband. I know it will go away even though I have that dreaded fear it won't. I just hope it goes away soon.
Goddess temporarily in hiding...
EDIT (wanted to write these down for myself more than anything)
- zero energy
- no patience
- extreme fatigue
- little interest in things
- feel like sobbing
- little appetite
- feeling 'off'
- extreme desire for comfort, whether in clothing, food, smells, affection, or other things
P.S. Tried a drink called Neuro Bliss tonight. It's specifically designed to help with stress and mood. It seemed to help a little bit. Going to pick up more tomorrow to keep around for times like this.