Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Depression Is Real

Coincidentally, the same day that Robin Williams died, I was having a very bad day. Not your normal bad day, a very depressed and anxiety riddled day. Some people think that depression is just a frame of mind. For some, it is. It's a passing phase. For others, it's not at all passing. It will come and go sometimes, and sometimes it will always be there. And sometimes, even with medication, it will still lurk in the shadows waiting for a moment to creep in. For me, it's never fully been gone. Managed, to a point, maybe, but not fully gone. I function; I get out of bed, I get dressed, I get my son ready for school, I eat, I run errands, I talk with others, I play games, etc. All while depression lurks, taunting me, goading me, harassing me. Yesterday was different. Yesterday, it took over. I could barely move. I could barely speak. I somehow managed to take a shower in the morning, but the rest of the day was spent in bed. It got to the point where my husband had to lift me out of bed, pull me up the stairs, remind me, more than once, to drink the Gatorade in the glass in my hand that I could barely lift to my mouth. He made dinner and honestly, I'm surprised he didn't have to feed me. I could barely keep my eyes open and all I wanted to do was lay down and sleep again. It was, a very, very bad day.

I don't like talking about myself like this. It's easy to say, "Yeah, I was depressed", but it's completely different to describe how it affects you. BUT, people need to know this. People need to understand that this is a real disease, not a choice. The way I've explained it to my six year old son is that my brain is broken. Literally, it may not be in pieces, but it is NOT functioning on a normal level. Can you tell your brain to stop you from feeling an irrational fear of something? Not really. You might be able to practice ways of calming the anxiety that comes from the fear, but the fear doesn't really go away. Can you tell your leg to stop hurting if it breaks? Can you tell someone that has cancer that they don't really need chemotherapy or treatment? Have the sniffles? Stop having a cold. Sneeze every time you're around a dog? Stop being allergic to dogs. Your brain not taking in serotonin correctly? Stop being sad.

Doesn't make any sense, does it?

You know what would help? Don't ignore it. Don't ignore the person suffering. Don't forget that they ARE suffering. Don't tell them to get over it. Don't tell them that God made them this way. Don't tell them there's a higher reason. Don't tell them it gets better, or easier over time. Don't tell them what they should or should not do.

DO be there for them. DO offer them a hug, or two, or twenty, or a hundred. DO physically help them if they need it. DO get them something to eat/drink. DO spend time with them. DO try to talk with and understand them. DO compliment and encourage them.

Don't say there's light at the end of the tunnel, BE the light IN the tunnel.

Do you really think I chose this?

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

A Profound View of Suicide

I read this on a blog post over at Single Dad Laughing and it struck me as SO profound. I hope it reverberates through your soul as it is mine.

"I believe the suicidal urge is a war-cry reverberating from the deepest recesses of one's soul. As it percolates up past the layers, through the adopted filters, and into the exhausted mind of the receiver, the message gets jumbled.
In a world where the emotions are dishonored and simply categorized as either "good" or "bad", the suicidal urge is the most misunderstood of all. Every emotion is vital. Each has a message to relay. They are the pristine communication between our spirits and our bodies. A visceral way to let us know when things are well or when boundaries have been violated. The very foundation of our instincts. And we all-too-often stuff them down or ignore them completely, especially the "bad" ones.
With all my heart I trust that the suicidal urge has an important message to deliver.
A terrifyingly beautiful message: something MUST die....not someONE....someTHING.....a belief or a practice that is so contrary to the beauty and truth of who you are that to keep it would destroy you.
THAT is what must be killed. 
Not you.
Not EVER you."

I know nothing about the poster other than what's on their profile here:

You can also check out the blog post I found it on here:

Thursday, November 15, 2012

My Review of American Cream Conditioner

Originally submitted at LUSH USA

Mark Constantine created this conditioner based on inspiration from 1950's American milk bars where girls in poodle skirts and knee socks went to meet their boyfriends and drink frothy milkshakes. We begin with honey water for softening locks, then add delicious fresh strawberries full of vitam...

Great Conditioner

By SoftlyFalling from Utah on 11/15/2012


5out of 5

When you survey your stash, you label this product: Cult Classic

Pros: Improves Texture, Great Smell, Detangles, Smooths & Softens, Adds Shine, Improves Hair Health, Gentle

Best Uses: Daily Use, Thick Hair, Dull hair

Hair Type: Wavy Hair

Describe Yourself: Minimalist

The first time I used this I couldn't stop smelling my hair! I don't notice it as much now, but my hair still smells good and feels great. I have really thick, thirsty hair so this product doesn't last as long for me. After using it my hair feels soft, is manageable, shiny, and fragrant.


My Review of T'eo

Originally submitted at LUSH USA

Invigorating lemongrass refreshes pits and zings up the nose to say howdy-do! No longer will you have to worry about musty smells wafting out from under your arms; T'eo is packed with baking soda to absorb sweat and tea tree, lemon and juniperberry to wrangle odour-causing bacteria. This one is...

Best Deodorant

By SoftlyFalling from Utah on 11/15/2012


4out of 5

When you survey your stash, you label this product: Must-Have

Pros: Great Smell, Long-Lasting, Good Protection

Cons: Messy

Best Uses: Intense Physical Activity, Daily Use, Odor Control

Describe Yourself: Natural

I love this product! It smells great and does a great job controlling body odor. I've only noticed it irritating my skin if I put it on immediately after I shower, but if I wait a little bit it's fine. The only thing I don't like about it is that the blue waxy stuff crumbles and falls apart very quickly and easily. Also, get a massage bar tin to keep it in.


Sunday, October 7, 2012

My Review of Aromaco

Originally submitted at LUSH USA

We thought about what ingredients would be most effective in a deodorant and packed them all into this bar. Baking soda helps absorb excess moisture and smells, so that was an obvious choice. Patchouli is a heady and sensual miracle worker; it kills odour-causing bacteria and soothes the skin, perf...

Not my favorite
By SoftlyFalling from Utah on 10/7/2012

3out of 5
When you survey your stash, you label this product: None of the above
Pros: Long-Lasting, Goes On Clear
Cons: A Little Difficult To Use, Smells Funny
Best Uses: Daily Use
Describe Yourself: Natural
I think this is a great alternative to modern deodorants, especially anti-perspirants, but I don't like the scent and the scent gets stronger when my body is working harder. I also wonder how I'm supposed to apply it when it gets down to its last bit. All-in-all it's not a bad product, it's just not for me. I'm going to get the T'eo and see if I like that one better.

My Review of Jumping Juniper

Originally submitted at LUSH USA

Lavender and rosemary are two herbs you really want if you're having trouble in the oil production department. This shampoo bar jumps into action to sort out any oil problems. It's the only shampoo we know of that smells like a gin and tonic; it's made with the essential oils of juniper...

By SoftlyFalling from Utah on 10/7/2012

5out of 5
When you survey your stash, you label this product: Must-Have
Hair Type: Wavy Hair
Pros: Lasts a long time, Lathers Well, Easy to use, Great Smell, Cleans Thoroughly, Improves Hair Health, Lightweight, Gentle
Best Uses: Daily Use, Thicker Hair, Oily Hair
Describe Yourself: Minimalist
When I first heard of solid shampoo I was a bit skeptical, but also curious. After trying one of LUSH's bath bombs I went to a store and bought several more items to try. This was one of them. I was surprised at how well it lathers and lasts. I was afraid it might fall apart when I got it wet, but it holds together very well. I was told a little bit goes a long way and boy were they right! I can lather a little bit onto my hands and then run it through my hair and it lathers a ton more. I LOVE the smell and my hair feels SO lightweight and healthy now! This product is now a staple in my shower routine!

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

My Review of LUSH Phoenix Rising Bath Bomb

By SoftlyFalling from Utah on 9/5/2012

5out of 5
When you survey your stash, you label this product: Guilty Pleasure
Pros: Luxurious, Shimmery, Relaxing, Sexy, Soft
Best Uses: Spa night, Date Night, Girls night out

I'm not much of a bath person, but I wanted to try this out. I got out of my bath 20 minutes ago and my skin feels LUXURIOUS! So soft! And shimmery! And relaxing! I think I've been converted...

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

My Review of Apple Slice

Originally submitted at Diamond Candles

About this scentA fresh green apple. We took a blender, several apples, a ring, and a candle wick and voila! Apple Slice Diamond Candle. Well not quite exactly but that's what it smells like.

By SoftlyFalling from Utah on 4/10/2012

5out of 5
Pros: Pleasant Scent, Long Lasting, Attractive Design
Best Uses: Lighting, Scent, Gifts, Decoration, Ambiance
Describe Yourself: Midrange Shopper
I love that this candle does not have an overpowering scent, and yet it still can fill a room. Even unlit and uncovered I can still smell the mild apple scent when I walk by. The soy candle burns longer and cleaner, which means less smoke and more scent! I LOVE this candle! (And I was very pleased with the ring inside too!)
My First Ring
Tags: Picture of Product

Sunday, March 25, 2012

I adore my little sister and this has got to be THE cutest/sweetest, most adorable engagement video EVER! I LOVE YOU CHICKADEE!!!!


Sunday, December 11, 2011

Beautiful & Powerful

Please take the time to watch this video. It is full of beautiful words and powerful images. Please share.

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